Its a very weird thing when trauma starts to rear it’s ugly head. I’d heard about the dramatic healing that fascial manoeuvres can bring about in the body, but until now I’d never experienced it first hand.

I’d always thought I was a fairly grounded, well-rounded individual that’s had a comfortable life to-date. So it’s made me re-evaluate considerably on how much trauma we are dealing with as a society. And that’s opened my eyes to another perspective on why we are so sick as a nation.

It’s unsettling and empowering in equal measure to know that all this raw emotion still exists in my body. And even though the actual event was 30+ years ago, meeting it head on, the hurt, confusion, anger, and shame all felt like it was only yesterday. How does the body/mind do that? How can it hold all this inside and I have no idea its in there? It’s like a secret computer programme that’s been operating in the background and running in sync with the rest of my life for all this time. Only it now seems that this is the programme that’s had overall control all along.

After a recent 5 day cleanse (more on that here!) I started to notice that things were shifting in my body. Blocked emotions and behavioural patterns I’ve struggled with for years were starting to continually come to the forefront, almost as if they were telling me it was time to acknowledge them.

The power of fascial release work

Remembering what I’ve read and heard over the years, I started looking for somatic release and facial movement classes online, which lead me discover the amazing Human Garage community. In one way this has been totally life-changing for me, but on the other hand it literally opened the door to a whole heap of emotions buried deep within that I had no idea were still in there. Still, as they say, its better out than in! So in a bid to meet this trauma head on and deal with it I spent the weekend meditating and journalling. It was pretty deep, and I’m not sure after documenting everything that came up if I’ll ever revisit this post, but I know I need to get it out there in order to move on, so here goes…

I have an overwhelming sense of frustration that people aren’t seeing me for who I am. They see the old me, the me I’ve released and moved on from. Personally, as a race, I don’t think we give others enough credit for trying to change and better themselves. It’s these people that keep us stuck in these unhelpful life patterns. Is it jealousy, resentment, or are they just so set in their ways and ‘asleep’ through life that they don’t register the change? I’ve made the decision that either they accept the new me or they slowly fade from my life!

When you’re serious about releasing all the unhelpful thoughts, emotions, pains, hurts, holding patterns from your life, you’re immediately board that rollercoaster towards wellness. You know this journey will take you through tough days when all sorts or crap will rear its ugly head, but deep down you know there will always be light at the end of the tunnel to head towards. So buckle up, because it could well turn out to be the ride of your life! And never forget that you are moving towards a better life – one that contains a brighter, freer, more balanced you. In my books, that can never be wrong!